Tim Morris

your personality glowed as bright as your smile.
your loving heart was something to be cherished.
your intelligence was something to be admired.
you loved with every ounce of being you with-in you.
for you to go away so soon is tragic.
your heart and soul will be missed.

© Crystal Lynn Wheat 09/25/06

.rain.

As I lay here awake listening to the rain I'm wondering where you are. Do you think of me when your not alone? You are always on my mind, as I pray for your soul. Can you not love me for who I am? Or am I just another fascination for your mind, body and spirit. You say you want me but not for love. You say you need me but not for life. My heart aches for you and my mind says "find him" but you do not want me anymore. To you I am worthless. I imagine holding you in my arms to be pure delight. This I will never know- for you have deceived my heart.


© Crystal Lynn Wheat

Momma

This a poem my mother wrote (the first part) 2 weeks before she died.....I finished it for her.

Day by day I think of you
I sit and wonder what to do
How can I know what you are going through?
Day by day I think of you

Day by day I sit and wait
For you to come, but it's getting late
As I lay there trying to stay awake
Day by day I sit and wait

Day by day I miss you more
I see the clock and it's half past four
It's nine o'clock now and I'm sitting by the door
Day by day I miss you more

Day by day I realize your gone
You've left me here and I'm all alone
You've traveled far away- far beyond the stone
Day by day I realize your gone
© Crystal Lynn Wheat

Thoughts

Is there any reason to assume we are lonely for a purpose? To teach us a lesson about being alone later in life. When children have moved on, friends have moved away, passed away or your not sure. Are we alone now in life to prepare us for the future? Is this something we should deal with all of life? I think I have discovered the answer..........wait for it........here it comes......
NO!!! Even when we feel alone....we are not. Even if we think we are alone....we are not. Even if you think you will be alone....we are not. God is with us....everyday, every minute of everyday, every second of every minute of everyday...and so on. This is something I realized sitting at my desk at work. Call it an epiphany if you like.....I'm not sure.


I awoke this morning feeling tired, alone and so far away from reality I wasn't sure what to do. So I started my morning routine....coffee, shower, clothes, wake up kid, get him dressed (which should be an olympic event that early in the morning.), feed him and get in the car. I got to work after dropping him off at school and thought....here I go again. Same thing everyday...monotony at its best. I sat here thinking my mom's birthday would be coming up if she were alive, mother's day was coming up, and I had no mother to celebrate with. AHHHH but I have God, right?RIGHT!!! All these thoughts kept taking me back to being lonely.


If you think about it...I'm not really lonely. I have a wonderful dad, grandma and son. Not to mention the wonderful friends I have........but the emptiness is so much greater sometimes that I don't know what to do. So I pray and I realize....here it is again.....I have God. I have all these wonderful "mommies" here on earth with me now. Mama Cheryl, Peggy, and a few other wonderful women in my life. WOW!!! I'm not alone.....here on earth I have all these wonderful things, people and GOD....I am truly blessed to have such wonderful things. Layne is wonderful, my daddy is wonderful, my grangran is wonderful, my Magpie, MiMi, and Lolita are wonderful, My Meechelle is wonderful, My AMG is wonderful (love, mal-mal), Sissie has been a solid rock in the storm.THANK YOU!!!!

.lost love.

.lost love.


fire fills my heart
it covers the scars left behind
so no one can see
the soul left in limbo
can anyone see past the flames?
the pain is great inside
the hurt is deep in flesh
wounds to great to heal
is there anyway to fill the void?
close the window to the pain?
somewhere a new window is open
fly away to promises anew.
©Crystal Lynn Wheat

.mysterious.

.mysterious.

Mysteries in front of me
The past behind me
New horizons are in bloom
I can see them from here
They are just out of my reach
A little to far for me to grasp
So many things in my view
Which one do I choose?
Day by Day, Inch by Inch
I seem to get closer
But I don't know if the road I'm on
Is the right place for me to be
The mysterious future lies ahead of me
Which way will I go?
©Crystal Lynn Wheat

Mommas Rose

This is a poem I wrote the day after my mom passed away. What I would give to have her back....

Mommas Rose
By: Crystal Wheat
I know that you are no longer here with us,
but I will always remember your smiling face.
You now have gone up to heaven,
which I know is a better place.
I dont think you know how missed you will be,
the tears will never go away.
This will live with me for eternity,
this sad and timeless day.
Every time that I see a rose,
I will think of you.
For I know how much you loved them,
to nurture them and watch them grow.
I will always remember the good times we shared,
your love meant so much to me.
I will be with you one day again,
when God says " Come home and see."
But for now I will remember your laugh, your smile and your face.
©Crystal Lynn Wheat

I'm going through and posting alot of things I have written in the past......more to come.

Okay so this is no easy subject here. Love...four little letters...yet they have such a broad meaning. LOVE...people shout it from the rooftops, people profess this everyday,fathers show their children, mothers tell their children, and friends tell each other(I am grateful for family, and friends who tell me they love me!!). It is not a term to be thrown around lightly...but yet some do anyway. How can this be? People see this four letter word just as they do other simple everyday words- love can be compared to the word foot...but that doesn't make any sense. You can't say "I foot you" and someone just know what you mean. You say "I love you" and OHHH that is what you mean. I didn't know that you loved me! I have this hope one day that someone will love me- the kind of love you want to shout from a rooftop...profess daily to me. It doesn't seem like to much to ask.....but yet that little four letter word means so much!! So maybe one day I will hear those words (the shout from the rooftop kind) and I will know that true love is unbreakable. So don't tell me that "you foot me"...tell me you love me.

Pirates

Ok...So I'm not a pirate. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am far from it. I get sick riding in the backseat of a car....so I wouldn't be very good on a boat. I just couldn't think of a catchy title for this one. Not really much going on...school, work, church, and life. School and my child take up most of my time.....I love spending time with my son.....but school is boring this semester. Well not much else to say today. I will post some of my poetry and thoughts later.